My confidence has been super shaky lately. I have no idea why. I have a beautiful husband, a wonderful little home, an amazing pug, and great family and friends. I just can't help but feel like I'm lacking in my own personal goals. I do laundry all day. It is kinda boring.. so then I go to Disneyland.. and I feel so free.. and then I realize how happy I am down there, and how I'll never ever get there so I will never be that happy all the time. It sucks.
One- I was born to perform. I was born to sing. And I have never thought that my voiced "sucked", but lately I do. I'm not taking care of it like I should, so it sounds terrible. Everyone I know will disagree and tell me that I am amazing, but right now, I just don't hear it.
Why do I have to be my hardest critic? No matter how happy other people can make me feel in a moment, I can never find that same happiness within my own soul. When I look in a mirror, or listen to my voice, or think about my life, I see something completely different than what is seen by the rest of the world. I always have, and I don't think it will ever change.
